It feels like a blessing. Every year I get to hit the reset button on New Year's Eve. Get to have a fresh start, make different choices, make better choices. Take stock. Did I accomplish what I'd hoped? Did I even attempt it? If I didn't, was it something I really wanted to do or felt I should do? Or did I procrastinate out of fear,embarassment, laziness. If I read all my other blogs, are these same things present? I actually don't have to answer that question, I know the answer.
If perfection was my goal, I expect I'd have given up years ago. It's the trying that counts, the putting one foot ahead of the other, the sameness of the attempts does not matter. It's the deciding after a failure or disappointment to take an action, even a small one, anything to change the momentum of that downward spiral, to slow it down, to reverse it.
I think being kinder probably matters more than most other things. Holding my breath for one extra second before speaking my mind. Knowing my mind before I speak. Holding myself to a higher standard without self-loathing, bringing loving kindness into my interactions with others.
It's a New Year, but I hope to remember, every day is a New Day.
We're working on some new projects, with some new people, and hope to have it out in 2015. If it lines up, and it comes to fruition and it sounds the way we want it to sound and says what we wanted it to say, you'll be hearing it. If not, we'll be trying again, putting one foot in front of the other.
All the best for your New Year, whenever you start it.
Love,
M